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Saturday, January 19, 2008

Blinded by the light

 Over the last few weeks, I have noticed so many hints that I'm doing something wrong. So I'll just say it right away - I am a very insensitive person. What a revelation. I thought that I knew people, that I was somehow socially advantaged to be able to read people and to be able to joke around using prior knowledge of the person (the better I know you, the funnier I can be). But no, people do not need to be funny. People need to be caring. And I'm not going to revert to the use of empathy in Pharmacy, where a conversation must not be considered an end in itself, but as a means to ensure optimal endpoints from drug therapy (gotta love "communication" textbook quotes).

Perhaps it started with reading about empathy and realizing that I am going to fail every single scenario I tested myself with. With recognizing my own tone of voice in some of the un-empathetic example responses. With completely missing my empathy cue during Pharmacy lab. With meeting Amanda on the ski trip and realizing how sensitivity opens up doors and leads to understanding. With lectures from a certain Pharmacy prof (who shall remain nameless) which were wonderfully entertaining - but which, at the end of the day, you wonder if he/she would have better engaged their audience if he/she was more encouraging rather than hawk-like. Which drew comparisons with my tutoring style of old. With finally realizing that all the odd looks people give me are not because of stuff that I do, but because of stuff that I say. And most importantly, with realizing how badly I treat people closest to me, as according to my current mood or whim.

Perhaps I should stop being so sarcastic. Perhaps I should stop continuously teasing Bing and instead listen to what he has to say. How much more meaningful will that be? Perhaps I should stop attacking people making a fool of themselves and appreciate the effort behind it. Perhaps I should stop making hasty decisions and realize that things are not always what they seem.

Suggestions are always welcome.
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